! SICK !

Everything been so sick..
mentality sick,
heart sick,
myself sick too...

Actually being alone facing all the shit things is really suffer.
i trying my best to over come everything..
smoothing all the things..
recovering my heart..

I'm starting use to be like this..
be lonely at night,taking care myself,living alone day by days...
friends is thg i cannot lost now..
thx for those who beside me,comfort me..

I decided to make up myself,be strong again.
pay all my heart and effort to myself,my life , my STUDIES!
i cannot be like this anymore..cz no one will pity me..
i have to be more shine,more tough! hit the goal i want!
all the shit things cant beat me down!!
i will stand up and keep walking from fall.
i know its hard,but i will try!

Even i know things i dont want to know,fact that i dont want accept,
memories that i dont want forget,pain that cant heal,
mistake that cannot recorrect,person that cannot come back,
times that cannot return,things that never change,
happen that i cant understand,karma that i have to take..
life no u-turn..time is running out,thing happen mean happen,
sun is still rise and set...

Once upon a time,im a happy girl too...
I want my confident back,
want my smile back,
want to know who is the right one..
i want happiness,
i want normal life.
if i can choose,i want to be normal.
normal look,no fame,no nothg..
be a normal happy girl..
life is smooth..
everything is fine...

even now i still emo-ing,cant stop myself..still down...
but, wish me luck! i'm trying...

loves,